I didn't recognize myself intuitively or emotionally in the mirror. I had to logically deduce it was me. I felt like I was looking at a different man that wasn'

I didn't recognize myself intuitively or emotionally in the mirror. I had to logically deduce it was me. I felt like I was looking at a different man that wasn't me with a face I couldn't call my own. The reason was: there was no "my own" I just was. So I couldn't feel that what I saw was me. Because of this, it felt like I was looking at someone else. To summarize, I almost failed the mirror test, lol. There were smaller issues, but that's all they were: smaller issues. This "almost not recognizing myself in the mirror" thing that felt scary as hell and I concluded that I couldn't wield the Buddhist philosophy properly and I was developing myself towards an unknown place with unknown consequences.