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You're not kidding. From his "about" page: "As I neurally wave farewell here, I remain an atheist, and I'm delighted scientists are still researching to move h

You're not kidding. From his "about" page: "As I neurally wave farewell here, I remain an atheist, and I'm delighted scientists are still researching to move humanity to its highest apexes of enlightenment. My various neurotransmitter release rates decelerate over time due to a prenatal genetic alteration by alcohol and tobacco, but in my neural disturbances, I've danced and conversed with processions of rainbow "ghost" women to keep me company through the occasional derivative misty night. From age five to age twenty-six, I called this attention deficit hyperactive disorder, A.D.H.D. Now, I've grown to call this part of myself the descript phrase Neural Deceleration Disorder, N.D.D. By selectively disconnecting certain neurons and combining slow motion adrenaline release, I am first to declare I am the strongest man alive by such mechanisms. Neurons and other cells in parts of my body like the eyes, visual cortex, cerebral cortex, and prefrontal cortex work somewhat independently yet are holistically intertwined like a networked graph to create the reality I perceive. The website logo of josephcantrell.org in the top left is an image of my brain generated using an MRI machine at Georgia Tech, and it is encoded with the recognition of my motivations. Decode my obfuscated code in my home executive functions JS file, and refresh straight away for secret magnetic induction powers to blacken the hole of the Milky Way. 101010x3!"

throwaway473736 4y ago
Reads like amphetamine psychosis. Been there.
- syspec 4y ago
  How did you recognize it in yourself, and how did you overcome it?
  - throwaway473736 4y ago
    Overcome: stopped taking amphetamines. Recognize: self-reflection after brief periods where I wasn't taking amphetamines. Glib as it is, that's basically it. Prescribed by a doc at 15. Used them for a decade. After reflecting on my actions and the person I was, it brought me deep shame. If you're wondering if you've fallen into psychosis, I recommend keeping a journal for a month. Write your thoughts and reflections for the day inside. Then, a month or two later, take a break from the stims, and re-read what you've written. If you come off as psychotic then you have your answer. The journal was my first real clue that something was amiss; but really, anything that records your behavior works too (e.g. text messages, Slack messages, blog posts, emails, phone recordings, audio recordings, video recordings, etc.).
    - ethicalsmacker 4y ago
      Did any of your family/friends/coworkers bring it to your attention as well? Or did it kind of fly under the radar with them?
      - throwaway473736 4y ago
        Unfortunately, not. They saw the changes, but none spoke out about them -- until I'd already made an unforgivable ass of myself. Many relationships have been permanently damaged or destroyed. To be fair to them, I understand. I recognize bits and pieces of the psychotic state of mind in people who drink too much coffee: and I'm avoidant of these people, rather than confrontational with them (I, too, want to keep my involvement with psychos to the minimum).
        ethicalsmacker 4y ago
        I think that is far too common. I had a coworker that was a paranoid schizophrenic and he stopped taking his medication. We all knew he was "off" and we kind of dealt with it. I had complained a number of times to our founder and his advice was to "take him out to dinner and smooth things over". Crappy advice. It was a weird and rocky ~6 months until the coworker threatened to kill our founder's cat one day.
ethicalsmacker 4y ago
Anyone that decodes functions.js (https://josephcantrell.org/functions.js https://josephcantrell.org/functions.js) can find the hidden message he talks about: https://josephcantrell.org/res/images/trippy1.png https://josephcantrell.org/res/images/trippy1.png May be suffering from schizophrenia or some related issue. Basically it creates an animation where trippy1 is rained down the page infinitely.

throwaway473736 4y ago

Reads like amphetamine psychosis. Been there.

syspec 4y ago
How did you recognize it in yourself, and how did you overcome it?
- throwaway473736 4y ago
  Overcome: stopped taking amphetamines. Recognize: self-reflection after brief periods where I wasn't taking amphetamines. Glib as it is, that's basically it. Prescribed by a doc at 15. Used them for a decade. After reflecting on my actions and the person I was, it brought me deep shame. If you're wondering if you've fallen into psychosis, I recommend keeping a journal for a month. Write your thoughts and reflections for the day inside. Then, a month or two later, take a break from the stims, and re-read what you've written. If you come off as psychotic then you have your answer. The journal was my first real clue that something was amiss; but really, anything that records your behavior works too (e.g. text messages, Slack messages, blog posts, emails, phone recordings, audio recordings, video recordings, etc.).
  - ethicalsmacker 4y ago
    Did any of your family/friends/coworkers bring it to your attention as well? Or did it kind of fly under the radar with them?
    - throwaway473736 4y ago
      Unfortunately, not. They saw the changes, but none spoke out about them -- until I'd already made an unforgivable ass of myself. Many relationships have been permanently damaged or destroyed. To be fair to them, I understand. I recognize bits and pieces of the psychotic state of mind in people who drink too much coffee: and I'm avoidant of these people, rather than confrontational with them (I, too, want to keep my involvement with psychos to the minimum).
      - ethicalsmacker 4y ago
        I think that is far too common. I had a coworker that was a paranoid schizophrenic and he stopped taking his medication. We all knew he was "off" and we kind of dealt with it. I had complained a number of times to our founder and his advice was to "take him out to dinner and smooth things over". Crappy advice. It was a weird and rocky ~6 months until the coworker threatened to kill our founder's cat one day.

ethicalsmacker 4y ago

Anyone that decodes functions.js (https://josephcantrell.org/functions.js https://josephcantrell.org/functions.js) can find the hidden message he talks about: https://josephcantrell.org/res/images/trippy1.png https://josephcantrell.org/res/images/trippy1.png May be suffering from schizophrenia or some related issue. Basically it creates an animation where trippy1 is rained down the page infinitely.