> It's interesting to hear from someone who apparently had a similar experience, but considers it eerie and unsettling. If I could summarize it, it's that I lo

> It's interesting to hear from someone who apparently had a similar experience, but considers it eerie and unsettling. If I could summarize it, it's that I lost my ability to buffer the various seeds of what the subconscious mind generates in order to spur the conscious mind into action. That strange boundary where thoughts "come from"; normally I'm able to observe that and contemplate it (usually too much and for too long, to my own detriment). With meds, it's like that boundary widens substantially and blurs as well... My ability to interpret what's coming across weakens, I become less critical of what I'm thinking about or doing, why I'm doing it, and so on. I feel like I lose a part of what makes me who I am. Though people often say that because they feel less creative or something, I think I have the sense that I live a less conscious life on meds. I do get more done, but I'm not truly aware of what I'm doing. That's what's so unsettling to me. It isn't like I become a robot or I forget hours of my day (in fact I might even remember more of my day). It's more like I act on unexamined thoughts far more often. It's probably just my personal philosophy getting in the way, but something seems deeply wrong with that. Akin to the unexamined thought not being worth thinking, I worry that actions based on unexamined impulses may not be worth acting upon. To some degree. Doing my taxes is always worthwhile and I can't delay that, so meds are great in that regard. On a day to day basis though, I get the sense that I lose a piece of myself to the noisy, urgent, relentless impulses to just do, do, do. And again, it isn't an intense sensation and I can sit still and relax. I make it seem like the meds are getting me super wound up when it's not like that. The difference is quite subtle, but I suppose it changes aspects of my mind which I'm hyper-sensitive to. Hopefully that makes sense!