I can't express how much I related to this. Actualizing/praxis is the big blocker here and it's so hard to break out of my programming. I think art has a libera

I can't express how much I related to this. Actualizing/praxis is the big blocker here and it's so hard to break out of my programming. I think art has a liberating effect here, but I'm still 'going through the motions' of feigning 'work' without necessarily introspection since.. Im not working for anyone but myself at this point. I saw a comment on HN along the lines of, I don't need to be maximally efficient because the cause (corporate profits) won't ever justify the means. Hopefully we both find a way out but I'm beginning to suspect that out in just another way back in, without a drastic reframing I fear I've grown too complacent on the usual. Maybe reading Nagel might help, or maybe Tolstoy :p