> My brain immediately worked far better than usual as well, but I couldn't direct it. I could socialize more easily, go about tasks more easily, but I was dram

> My brain immediately worked far better than usual as well, but I couldn't direct it. I could socialize more easily, go about tasks more easily, but I was dramatically less cognizant of what I was doing and why. That part was even worse. It provides a laser-focus on whatever goal is in front of you, but if something catches your attention despite that then that laser-focus gets pointed towards the new thing and whatever it was you were in the middle of is now totally out of mind. You definitely need to realise this if you want to make effective use of amphetamines to improve focus, otherwise you end up with an unconsolidated melange of half-baked projects and aborted deep-dives :) > The worst part of ADHD meds is the part where I do things without needing to think about it. I can go on autopilot and just get stuff done... But I actually don't have a good grasp on the what and why part. My brain is just like "alright, do do do!". Externally it probably looks pretty unremarkable. Internally it's quite unsettling, though useful at times. For me the best part of ADHD medication was waking up in the morning and "just remembering" the thing I'd thought of before I went to sleep and had tagged as "I'll think about it in the morning". Our brains are designed to operate things without us having to consciously think about them and that's a good thing as consciousness is a scarce resource, especially for those of us who have to operate under ADHD's working memory and self-soothing deficits. Having parts of your brain start working as intended is pretty eerie in an existential way that I had to work through in my own head, but I think framing the autopilot positively is useful. I mean it's amazing how little conscious thought is required to get through the day if you think about it :)