Pretty much. I’m bipolar and every moment I need to have some awareness of where my mood is and do course corrections to head off episodes or emotional overreac

Pretty much. I’m bipolar and every moment I need to have some awareness of where my mood is and do course corrections to head off episodes or emotional overreactions. I quite literally can’t trust how I feel from minute to minute. Knowing my logical analysis of situations can also be compromised causes me to run deeper mental self-tests several times per day. I’m used to this but it’s a constant low-grade drain on my attention. Meditation is dangerous for me as it quickly leads to dangerous psychosis. (Life is a video game and I can’t really die.)