OP, to add on to keeptrying, to the extent that you can afford to, and feel up to it, I recommend showing some work in public. Write something about your journe

OP, to add on to keeptrying, to the extent that you can afford to, and feel up to it, I recommend showing some work in public. Write something about your journey and your learning, every week, either on LinkedIn, on dev.to, or on a personal blog. This practice can help show progress: to yourself when you feel down; to friends, colleagues, and supporters when you talk about your struggles; and show consistency, initiative, commitment, and skill to interviewers and managers as you apply to new employers. Don't do it so much that it becomes burdensome, but write a little about what you encounter and learn. It's important to have incremental goals that you can focus on day to day, while you pursue bigger goals. You are clearly already skilled and connected, may attending to your fears guide you to the more secure future you hope for.