I don't mean this to sound like a trivial solution, and it will not address the bigger issues, but it will absolutely help you address the emotional issues and

I don't mean this to sound like a trivial solution, and it will not address the bigger issues, but it will absolutely help you address the emotional issues and the need to be seen. Start journaling. Uncensored. Write nonstop for 30 minutes. This will clear your head, feel like an emotional burden lifted, and help with the feeling of not being able to talk to anyone. All of this will make dealing with the actual issues much easier. I have done therapy, and journaling every morning has the exact same cathartic effect for free. Google "Morning Pages" and "The Artist's Way" for more info, but it's literally that simple, and it's surprisingly effective.