I accidentally K-holed once (entirely my own careless fault) and it remains one of the scariest and most unpleasant experiences of my life. Despite years of deb

I accidentally K-holed once (entirely my own careless fault) and it remains one of the scariest and most unpleasant experiences of my life. Despite years of debilitating depression I'm so terrified of feeling even 10% or 20% of the way to that again that I just don't think I could do it. I'm aware you're not supposed to K-hole from the controlled medical dose, or even from most recreational use, but the feeling of losing my connection to my senses and body was so horrible I just don't think I could bring myself to put any more in me ever again.