Im nearing 40 and the only person "close" to me that has died is my grandpa, but I barely knew him since I grew up half way around the world. As an (immature)

Im nearing 40 and the only person "close" to me that has died is my grandpa, but I barely knew him since I grew up half way around the world. As an (immature) adult I saw him twice. Twice as a teen. Once as a child post-migration. I loved him so dearly as a young child yet, when he passed, it barely registered.