I've had... a few breakdowns over the last few years or so. Was suicidally depressed for a few months in 2021 or so, and have been in a similar situation earlie

I've had... a few breakdowns over the last few years or so. Was suicidally depressed for a few months in 2021 or so, and have been in a similar situation earlier this year too. Also experienced a lot of burn out, with a complete lack of motivation to do anything and a feeling of hopelessness in general. Sometimes I even question if I'm awake or that this is reality at all. As for why this sort of thing happens? Not sure. Maybe because of the feeling that I should be more successful than I am at the moment, and the fear I've wasted time that could have been more productive. Or maybe the isolation from a company that doesn't offer much support and a lengthy pandemic.