Hey, sorry you are going through that. > I know it's a cliché but I'm almost 40 so this isn't your regular teenage angst "nothing matters", I thought I was pas

Hey, sorry you are going through that. > I know it's a cliché but I'm almost 40 so this isn't your regular teenage angst "nothing matters", I thought I was past that. Teenage angst has a time. Unfortunately Midlife Crisis also has a time: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Midlife_crisis https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Midlife_crisis It could be what you are going through, at least partially. I went through it recently - coupled with the pandemic and unfortunate family problems, I ended up depressed. I reached out for help. Therapy took the blunt out of it. Didn't fix everything, but I am functional. I get "you are a good parent" and "you are a good boss" from time to time. Brightens my day. If therapy isn't for you, try the basics: exercise, diet, hobbies, family, friends. Anything that improves your mood will help you look at life with a more positive attitude. Be gradual with changes and expect short-term setbacks - what matters is improving in the medium-long term. Good luck!