You are not alone. I've suffered a breakdown as well, not a secret one. Went wandering, got in some trouble, lost well job in tech, ended up in a hospital. To

You are not alone. I've suffered a breakdown as well, not a secret one. Went wandering, got in some trouble, lost well job in tech, ended up in a hospital. Took me couple of years to recover from and one could say I'm still recovering. I went and sought help right after. Found decent psychiatrist/therapist with whom I could discuss the experience. Also my friends and my siblings came through, helped to rescue me and recover for which I"m forever grateful. Years later, I'm in different stage of my life and every now and then I think about what my therapist told me at the time: It was a breakthrough not a breakdown