Completely true. I found myself last year waking up every day saying fuck it, 5 caffeine pills to read the next book and same thing tomorrow, suffering is relat

Completely true. I found myself last year waking up every day saying fuck it, 5 caffeine pills to read the next book and same thing tomorrow, suffering is relative and sort of fake, it's just an experience like any other. There's only one life so it doesn't matter how easy someone else has it, that's inaccessible. Anyway I was fucked up over my brain and balls being fucked up from birth and losing 50% of my net worth but now that I am like two months away from owning a house and have the job that I want I've forgotten what used to bother me it's not even on the map anymore, call it nonattachment or call it positive nihilism you just grow past things. Im healed after surgery and walk normally, I blend in so and so and that's good enough