Well the good news is the most obvious problem you don’t need a degree to solve: self-judgement. You did not perform to a standard you were happy with, ambitiou

Well the good news is the most obvious problem you don’t need a degree to solve: self-judgement. You did not perform to a standard you were happy with, ambitious people rarely do, but don’t beat yourself up about it. If your internal narrative readily uses terms like “pathetic” then any time you underperform you’ll feel very bad, and you’ll wonder if failure is another datapoint describing some fundamental flaw. It’s not. Thinking in this way makes you far less robust. To make progress and be happy you have to be happy and proud of yourself now, of the things you’ve already done. You’re clearly a very impressive person. You took a negative path, turned it around and got a great job. They don’t hand those out. Everyone feels overwhelmed by challenging roles - I’d recommend doing more work to understand if your feeling of being out of your depth is shared or typical among your colleagues before deciding that you need to back out and seek more education. You have a chip on your shoulder about not succeeding in your CS program and so your narrative will easily point to that for your feelings of overwhelm, but it’s much more likely that you’re just in a challenging job, and if you could get the job with the degree you got, then if you keep working and learning in 12 months you’re going to be feeling a lot better and very accomplished. You should be impressed with yourself. I am. Don’t back down.