But, desires must meet possibilities...? ( I don't enjoy living under constant threat to my life and imposed choice of either being recruited (war) or jailed,

But, desires must meet possibilities...? ( I don't enjoy living under constant threat to my life and imposed choice of either being recruited (war) or jailed, even regardless of poor health condition. I'd really love to change this and do what I love (like art and programming). But it's a bit laughable )