You're addicted due to a deficiency in your reward pathways. Stop beating yourself up. You have no impulse control. You can not control these things with will

You're addicted due to a deficiency in your reward pathways. Stop beating yourself up. You have no impulse control. You can not control these things with will power any more than a dog can will its way to human. Self accept, get medication for the dopamine issue, stop beating yourself up, go slow.