I turned 86 at the end of March. People don't want to see it or hear about it. They say, "He lived a good life. It is just part of getting old." But you have

I turned 86 at the end of March. People don't want to see it or hear about it. They say, "He lived a good life. It is just part of getting old." But you have not lived the ruined part yourself yet. It is lonely and hopeless. Everyone is living their lives and they do not want to hear how you really feel. They want you to be positive. They want to say, "He was a fighter." A woman sits in my hallway crying because her father has not come to pick her up. She sobs and sobs. No one can comfort her. She might even be younger than me. No one visits her. You become a helpless child again. Things to say and think to make them feel better. So they feel like they will deal with it too and be ok too. Time will move faster and slower for you too and you will see for yourself.