I'm sorry you feel this way and I hope things get better for you. You didn't ask for advice, but I'd like to offer some. I recommend, at least once per year, p

I'm sorry you feel this way and I hope things get better for you. You didn't ask for advice, but I'd like to offer some. I recommend, at least once per year, putting your resume out on the market and trying to get at least one interview. Don't consider it as part of a plan to leave your current job, consider it practicing the skill of job seeking. You will get tons of useful knowledge performing this task. First, you don't feel need/urgency, because you're not planning to leave your current job, so significantly reduced interview anxiety. Second, you get better at the skill of interviewing. Third, you get a better picture of what the potential employers in your area are hiring for (skills, etc.). And last but not least, you really find out what the market is offering to determine if you're being compensated fairly. What's the worst that could happen? Someone convinces you to take a better job for more money?