i got to the same point but i view it as self denial since i just basically ignore objective reality and assume i’m doing well even if evidence contradicts this

i got to the same point but i view it as self denial since i just basically ignore objective reality and assume i’m doing well even if evidence contradicts this people telling me i suck doesn’t bother me because i know their wrong i used to be hyper critical of myself now i don’t worry about it i am what i am