I have not yet become significantly better, and not a math book, but I recently read A mathematicians Lament by Paul Lockhart and it resonated so much with me t

I have not yet become significantly better, and not a math book, but I recently read A mathematicians Lament by Paul Lockhart and it resonated so much with me that I plan to take another stab at math different from how it is taught in school. Waiting to get my hands on his book 'Measurement' and approach it more like art. If what he says is true, perhaps many who would have turned out great at math are locked out by how it's taught in school. For now, I have a test subject of one :)