Somehow life was given to you and now you have an unavoidable fall-back decision that is always in the fabric of your consciousneess (specially when everything

Somehow life was given to you and now you have an unavoidable fall-back decision that is always in the fabric of your consciousneess (specially when everything feels terrible): Rebelling against personal responsibility has a deterministic fatal fate that no narrative will protect you from. What will you do?