So I suppose you also write your own compiler, your own operating system, and built its computer from bare transistors as well? Because all of that looks like m

So I suppose you also write your own compiler, your own operating system, and built its computer from bare transistors as well? Because all of that looks like magic to me too. At some point you have to accept the foundation you have as something that works, it's battle proven, and it's built by experienced and reliable developers and you build on top of the shoulders of giants. Reinventing everything from scratch so that you understand it makes you the only one that understands it. There was a famous phrase by Arthur C. Clarke that I think applies here along the lines of "Any sufficient advanced technology is indistinguishable from magic".