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I agree completely and have felt this way for years. And this is despite me getting a job at a "good job" (good benefits, generally respectful etc, cool languag

I agree completely and have felt this way for years. And this is despite me getting a job at a "good job" (good benefits, generally respectful etc, cool language and tech). I went fully remote way before COVID. I've figured out how to cut my work with sawdust to get paid at work, and nowadays I'd say I spend more hours per workday on personal projects (programming and otherwise) than company work. So basically, I recommend making your job a low priority and focus on finding a remote company who will be happy with your output at that level of focus. Then you can get paid to do what you want in a way.

whateveracct 4y ago
I'll add something to this here instead of editing: It's performance review season (feels like it always is now - twice a year and check-ins) and I do find myself not able to do those as well anymore. Because it's constantly about growth and desire for growth. I don't want to grow professionally anymore. It's not zero sum, but effort and focus spent on my career as a backend guy isn't going to benefit me compared to, say, playing guitar or drawing. So I have to bullshit my way through that with fake statements. In reality, I'll continue being as good as I currently am. Which is pretty good and people seem to be happy with my services. But the way companies use growth to effectively make you orient your mindset in their favor is definitely annoying. I see you plain, monster.