Agreed, this sounds like OP is in the wrong job. To me, there are two types of companies as an engineer. There are companies that like engineers to focus solely

Agreed, this sounds like OP is in the wrong job. To me, there are two types of companies as an engineer. There are companies that like engineers to focus solely on product. This is the kind of company you'll hear "don't reinvent the wheel" a lot at because their understanding of their core skills probably doesn't branch that deep into engineering. Then there's companies where engineering is core to the product. Some folks hate these kinds of companies, but I tend to enjoy them because even the niche networking stack is related to product delivery somehow. Product-focused companies also, in my experience, tend to put a lot more emphasis on ritual precision. Agile isn't just a means of organizing, it becomes the way you get things done. These companies also tend to have some culty vibes to them, but again, could just be my experience. At engineering focused companies I've "done Agile" but the emphasis was mainly on giving me tools, systems, and incentives to self-organize more than the rituals themselves. These kind of companies are actually where I learned to love testing a lot more than I used to, but that was because someone took the time to shape how I wrote code so that it was easy to test.