I'm enjoying that interview right now - thanks for sharing! I also identified with the rest of your post. I've felt regret recently for the career "potential"

I'm enjoying that interview right now - thanks for sharing! I also identified with the rest of your post. I've felt regret recently for the career "potential" I lost to the inner struggle, and at around 15 years in, I think I understand these dynamics well on an intellectual level, but emotionally, I feel further than ever from being able to overcome them.