I empathize with this. I'm also a bad software developer and it goes beyond not being able to solve Leetcode. I can't recite programming patterns off the top of

I empathize with this. I'm also a bad software developer and it goes beyond not being able to solve Leetcode. I can't recite programming patterns off the top of my head, my problem solving ability isn't really there, I look at open source code and have no idea where I would begin to contribute to that or how someone even begins to make something like that. But somehow I manage at work. Bugs get fixed even though I have no idea how. Projects get delivered even though the whole scope of the work escapes me. Generally feel like I'm failing up at my job.