That last part I pulled out of my ass, but it seems drinking was a legitimate problem for you in the past. Compulsiveness is not something the masses will ever

That last part I pulled out of my ass, but it seems drinking was a legitimate problem for you in the past. Compulsiveness is not something the masses will ever understand (see also: kleptomania). Given your mental health issues, consider applying for disability as a Hail Mary. Lean into how your anxiety and compulsions interfere with your ability to work. Explore whether you have undiagnosed ADHD. I'm not advocating disability fraud, but it helps to have a secondary "physical" dysfunction to support your case (fibromyalgia is frequently claimed but I don't know how that ends). Gastrointestinal issues are also easily faked. This will take some time to build a case for, and again, I'm not advocating that you do anything fraudulent. Never, ever lie about anything in any context, ever. You don't seem to have much to lose, and some legitimate mental issues that could have led to a different life outcome were they properly addressed. Best of luck to you.