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My mental health problems are chronic, can get worse rapidly, and so far, nothing but escapism seems to fill me up in life, especially when I compare my life wi

My mental health problems are chronic, can get worse rapidly, and so far, nothing but escapism seems to fill me up in life, especially when I compare my life with that of others at my own age. I have given up on hope many times over, today I saw a self-text from 5 years ago of me questioning if I would ever make it, and so far, I have not. I have seen a psychologist for many years, a psychiatrist, and have asked people for help. I have nobody to blame for all of this but myself and the consequence of my own actions and decisions. I have no hope for my own future, but I wish everyone the best, and for people to know that I am the example on what not to do in life, so that future generations do not become who I currently am.

ohwellhere 4y ago
Some people have it much worse than others, and it sounds like you have it bad. You're still a person and worthy of love and capable of change. There's no magic bullet, but you can't predict the future. Keep working at it, brother.
- user-extended 4y ago
  Yes, I keep trying everyday, as I have no alternative. I've seen things go south so many times so far in life with myself to blame that I have no faith in faith or good luck anymore. As someone once told me "I've seen Prison inmates less miserable than you". I wish you the best though!
barbariangrunge 4y ago
Whatever else is going on in your life, try to get some daily exercise (even if it’s just walking). It won’t solve your problems but it will make them a tiny bit less heavy
- user-extended 4y ago
  I've tried exercising many times, I always give up half-way. I remember reading obesity is pretty much endemic in people (and even if they do lose weight, they most probably than not regain it soon enough), so I have no hopes on that from either.
  - kristian_io 4y ago
    Go for a walk, just for 20 mins, walk in one direction from your place. Then, give up and go back home :) Listen to music, podcast, to your own mind, whatever. Don't set a rigid schedule, like, I am going to do this every single day for the next year. Just do it today, no expectations. If nothing works you might as well do it, there is nothing you can loose. Some days you will go and others you will not.
A_Venom_Roll 4y ago
Last night I happened to watch a 'philosophical video' called "How to Be a Happy Loser | A Guide for Modern Day Untouchables" [0] that turned about pretty interesting. One of the things it discusses is that sometimes the situation you're in is partly due to bad luck. So although it's good to take some responsibility for your life, it's not really fair to blame yourself for all of it. There are a lot of other interesting video's on the channel, I would definitively check a couple of them out. Keep in mind that one thing you have is persistence (you keep trying everyday, and you tried exercising many times). [0] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LEPUX4eMUSw https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LEPUX4eMUSw

ohwellhere 4y ago

Some people have it much worse than others, and it sounds like you have it bad. You're still a person and worthy of love and capable of change. There's no magic bullet, but you can't predict the future. Keep working at it, brother.

user-extended 4y ago
Yes, I keep trying everyday, as I have no alternative. I've seen things go south so many times so far in life with myself to blame that I have no faith in faith or good luck anymore. As someone once told me "I've seen Prison inmates less miserable than you". I wish you the best though!

barbariangrunge 4y ago

Whatever else is going on in your life, try to get some daily exercise (even if it’s just walking). It won’t solve your problems but it will make them a tiny bit less heavy

user-extended 4y ago
I've tried exercising many times, I always give up half-way. I remember reading obesity is pretty much endemic in people (and even if they do lose weight, they most probably than not regain it soon enough), so I have no hopes on that from either.
- kristian_io 4y ago
  Go for a walk, just for 20 mins, walk in one direction from your place. Then, give up and go back home :) Listen to music, podcast, to your own mind, whatever. Don't set a rigid schedule, like, I am going to do this every single day for the next year. Just do it today, no expectations. If nothing works you might as well do it, there is nothing you can loose. Some days you will go and others you will not.

A_Venom_Roll 4y ago

Last night I happened to watch a 'philosophical video' called "How to Be a Happy Loser | A Guide for Modern Day Untouchables" [0] that turned about pretty interesting. One of the things it discusses is that sometimes the situation you're in is partly due to bad luck. So although it's good to take some responsibility for your life, it's not really fair to blame yourself for all of it. There are a lot of other interesting video's on the channel, I would definitively check a couple of them out. Keep in mind that one thing you have is persistence (you keep trying everyday, and you tried exercising many times). [0] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LEPUX4eMUSw https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LEPUX4eMUSw