I wasn't trying to say that was invalid or made up that you were going through those difficulties and I'm sure it can impact work. My point was more that I don'

I wasn't trying to say that was invalid or made up that you were going through those difficulties and I'm sure it can impact work. My point was more that I don't think it's helpful to consider it a failing due to factors out of your control. If your old code sometimes makes you cringe or think of various things that you would have done differently and better, that's evidence that you've been learning and improving. It's healthy for everyone to feel that sometimes and be able to reflect and critically evaluate their own work (though maybe not to the level that you're taking it).