I've read your comment and am thinking of you. I don't know how much that helps, but maybe it makes you feel less alone. One thing to note is that you aren't u

I've read your comment and am thinking of you. I don't know how much that helps, but maybe it makes you feel less alone. One thing to note is that you aren't unlovable, even if there's an absence of love directed at you. So much of life is based on the circumstances we're in. Contemporary life gives people few opportunities to be truly known, and so I think it's hard to conclude that anybody has seen and rejected your true self, for better or worse. You sound like a rather tenacious person, and I am hoping it pays off for you in the year to come.