For me I found the harder I worked the luckier I got. There are opportunities everywhere and it takes a long time of trial and error to get it right. It is not

For me I found the harder I worked the luckier I got. There are opportunities everywhere and it takes a long time of trial and error to get it right. It is not for everyone. Very few succeed in a linear or parabolic trajectory. The OP should be proud of their efforts. This was a learning experience that will absolutely help them in the future. Think of this as finishing a super tough college course and passing. On to the next phase.