Well the pattern does exist, that's why my brain is now fearful of new projects etc. Hell, I am even afraid of giving interviews. I have politely ended intervi

Well the pattern does exist, that's why my brain is now fearful of new projects etc. Hell, I am even afraid of giving interviews. I have politely ended interviews early when I realized I was bombing. I couldn't bear watching myself flail about and answer "I don't know" to question after question.