Yes, this is a big thing I struggled with when I was off meds. Me without meds felt so much more... "me-like" than me on meds. So when someone referred to medic

Yes, this is a big thing I struggled with when I was off meds. Me without meds felt so much more... "me-like" than me on meds. So when someone referred to medicated me as "normal me", it was extremely hurtful. What I had to realize is that even if "me without meds" was an existentially truer version of myself, people did not like me without meds, they did not want to be my friend, nor did they want to give me a job. That's what got me on meds, and yes, it felt really shitty at the time. Years later, I don't feel that way any more. "Me with meds" feels like me, more than ever actually. And, lots of those things I valued about "me without meds" (wit, spontaneity, high energy, creativity) came back over time as I adjusted to being medicated. Unfortunately, not everyone is able to find a med that allows them to get to that happy point. It took good healthcare, several tries, a support network, and (I assume) luck.