I just want to add 2 things to kemiller's helpful comment: 1.) Just talking to a therapist who you feel heard and understood by (whatever their method: CBT or

I just want to add 2 things to kemiller's helpful comment: 1.) Just talking to a therapist who you feel heard and understood by (whatever their method: CBT or any of the others below) will be a massive help - you'll feel less alone and the challenges and mindsets you wrote about will begin to feel less all encompassing. The world will be a less frightening place. 2.) I think Deutscher's post is one of the most courageous personal posts I've ever seen on a message board/social forum (certainly the most courageous in 2022). One of the hardest things for anyone to do is to admit their life hasn't/isn't going the way they expected and instead of lying to themselves, they do the incredibly brave thing of admitting they need help. Anyways, I just wanted to commend Deutscher for that (hopefully before my comment gets buried hours after the original post)