Thanks for sharing that for the OP. The narratives we create in our minds to explain the world can be a huge source of suffering and act as giant barriers to an

Thanks for sharing that for the OP. The narratives we create in our minds to explain the world can be a huge source of suffering and act as giant barriers to any improvements we can make. “It’s too late because of X.” “The best years are behind me since I reached 40.” etc. I know this from experience in battling my own demons. Therapy can be a huge help here if OP can find the right therapist.