You can turn it around. As others said - try to find a therapist that works for you. It could take some time, don't give up too early. Also you should probably

You can turn it around. As others said - try to find a therapist that works for you. It could take some time, don't give up too early. Also you should probably come to terms with the idea that you will require medication (antidepressants), and there's nothing wrong with that.