You can turn this around. Start out with the big goals, "wife, house, kids", and work your way down to the more immediate goals, and then start with very simpl

You can turn this around. Start out with the big goals, "wife, house, kids", and work your way down to the more immediate goals, and then start with very simple goals which eventually lead you to your bigger goals. Write it all down. Start with very small, easy wins. Get a shower, get a haircut, a decent outfit to wear, creating a simple PowerBI dashboard, start a resume, apply to a job. You will start feeling good after your start make progress, even small progress.