I have improved my life greatly a few years earlier and it's very much feasible. I'd recommend seeing a behavioral therapist (because it's the things you do th

I have improved my life greatly a few years earlier and it's very much feasible. I'd recommend seeing a behavioral therapist (because it's the things you do that matter in the long-term). I also started going to a gym, improve my social life, make an effort to have friends, identify other people's expectation and say no when they don't fit yours, ... If you're living in a small village, chances are your living close to your family and sometimes your family is negatively affecting your well-being, that might be why you were happy in the US. On the pro side: It sounds you have a lot of time and I suggest to start right away with reading and sports: - No more mr. nice guy - When i say no, I feel guilty - Models If you manage to run / do sports 15-45 mins per day (start slowly) you'll start thinking clearer again. Also, taking care of your health and body is generally a good start (food, weight, movement), the better you look the easier it is to chat up people of any sex and the more you'll be respected. All the best