First, I'd find someone to walk through the valleys you're in with you. Conventional talk therapy is good for that. If you're wanting to change habits in your l

First, I'd find someone to walk through the valleys you're in with you. Conventional talk therapy is good for that. If you're wanting to change habits in your life then find a therapist who can also do CBT. My only advice around CBT is that you really need to invest yourself in it. The system really only works if you take the time to recognize daily, incremental progress and you're on top of it. As far as your love life goes I simply disagree that you're past your "prime". People tend to say this when they're not looking at themselves in the best light anymore. There are plenty of women in their 40s looking to date and I'd bet there's some thinking about things like adoption. That's to say, I think there's more paths to what you want than you may currently realize. See my first paragraph on that. Last, I did a career reboot years ago. It's possible with a lot of studying and diligence. Again, you'll need a good system for recognizing incremental progress and appreciating your ascent. It is frustrating at times; the only thing I can say looking back on my own path is be patient with yourself. Life is quite an adventure and I wish I'd learned to appreciate the moments in which my life deviated so far from the standard experience - even the times that I thought were bad. They're the thing I share with others when they need perspective. You got this my guy, but don't go at it alone. That's how you land in suicidal ideation.