First suggestion, get into therapy. If that does not work or cannot be afforded, or will take too long, go somewhere else for a while. Anywhere else. Doesn't ha

First suggestion, get into therapy. If that does not work or cannot be afforded, or will take too long, go somewhere else for a while. Anywhere else. Doesn't have to be the US. Doesn't have to be your dream job. Every important breakthrough I made in my life was precipitated by changing my environment, at least temporarily.