With that much hatred in your opinion of our species, i'd say that you suffer from too much garbage thinking that has lost all perspective or balance in judging

With that much hatred in your opinion of our species, i'd say that you suffer from too much garbage thinking that has lost all perspective or balance in judging humanity. Yes, we can be a terrible species and in many ways continue to be awful to our own kind and other species, but we're also extremely social, capable of incredible acts of good and by our basic nature tend more towards cooperation, peaceful interaction and friendly exchange than towards violence and murder. We literally couldn't be where we are right now if the opposite was the case or if we were even half as bad as you describe. Also the obvious: Fashionable misanthropy is all fine and well if you enjoy pretending that obvious things aren't actually the case, but if you're taking it as seriously as you claim, nothing stops you from removing yourself from the human world around you if you hate it so much. Personally, i'd suggest therapy and some calming, professional external perspective.