I think even more so than “If I can put things eloquently enough, perhaps they'll understand why I did what I did.", it can be motivated as “I don’t think I’m a

I think even more so than “If I can put things eloquently enough, perhaps they'll understand why I did what I did.", it can be motivated as “I don’t think I’m a bad person and I didn’t intend to cause harm; if people are still mad at me, it must be because they don’t understand and I should explain harder.”