I just want to enjoy my gifts (intelligence, creativity, autism powers), minimize my curses (ADHD, depression, autism perceptions), and inspire/empower other pe

I just want to enjoy my gifts (intelligence, creativity, autism powers), minimize my curses (ADHD, depression, autism perceptions), and inspire/empower other people. I don't have a grand scheme for the latter. It would be cool if I did. But I'm not going to kid myself into thinking that I can overhaul my life and personality without ending up in the hospital from stress trying to optimize my remaining time. I'm in my early 30s and only in the last 5 years have I a) begun to learn programming, b) begun to learn about my own conditions, c) made serious effort to set goals for myself (besides a few pretty amazing one-offs in my youth). I am not having children (I made sure of that a few months ago), but I'm happy for all the people here who are. I hope I can pass on something important to other peoples' children. Actually, one more bullet point on my life's work: I want to be able to wake up every day and feel zero pressure to live up to my potential. Maybe I'll do it, maybe not, but all the adults who drowned young me in expectations without knowing who I really am don't deserve to keep telling me how to feel about myself.