At least you got a PHD lol. I only found out I had ADHD recently, years after I dropped out and learned to code on my own. All throughout my life I had been ahe

At least you got a PHD lol. I only found out I had ADHD recently, years after I dropped out and learned to code on my own. All throughout my life I had been ahead of my classes because I love learning, but I hated pointless exercises. I'd ace every test and then fail to turn in busy-work. I was ashamed of turning in unfinished stuff, or just plain didn't touch it. I really used to beat myself up over the whole "wasted potential" feeling I'd get. Especially so after my teachers were fifty-fifty "you have great potential, apply yourself" and "you're a jackass, you won't amount to anything". I always wonder how things could have been different. If I might've got into some irl engineering instead of software, or just advanced in my career faster, etc. My biggest hope is that my sporadic deep dives into different subjects will eventually lead to a good idea to invest in, or some oss i can get sponsored to save me from the despair of competing/comparing against my neurotypical peers with degrees.