The psychological pain (weight) of even carrying such a suicide pill/coin as part of your mission pack-out. Perhaps the person has a strong Judeo-Christian beli

The psychological pain (weight) of even carrying such a suicide pill/coin as part of your mission pack-out. Perhaps the person has a strong Judeo-Christian belief that God finds suicide and self-harm abhorrent. Or "Dr. Ellie Arroway"-non religious beliefs of the same. Maybe it's a big question mark how those beliefs are tested in the moment of being tortured. Maybe nobody involved likes the option, but it's there because we do not know about that moment, or what happens after we die, but we do know how utterly horrifyingly people can behave in war.