I know exactly what you feel like and I used to be exactly like you. Even down to preferring R to Python. All I can say is: Bite the bullet. Learn Python, forge

I know exactly what you feel like and I used to be exactly like you. Even down to preferring R to Python. All I can say is: Bite the bullet. Learn Python, forget about R. R is nice and all but there is nothing that couldn't also be done in Python. What helped me is: Learn to appreciate the beauty in actual coding, in deployments in environments in well structured, maintainable code. In scaling issues, databases etc.. There is an endless world out there which is extremely fascinating as soon as you get over the "all I want to do is modeling" mindset. Good luck. You can definitely do it, because I did it as well.