You seem deeply unhappy and dissatisfied with how your life turned out. I sometimes find myself there as well. It’s really not a good place to be. I hope you ar

You seem deeply unhappy and dissatisfied with how your life turned out. I sometimes find myself there as well. It’s really not a good place to be. I hope you are getting the fundamentals - exercise, sunlight, sleep, nutrition. When one or all those things are poor I tend to feel at my worst.