Practiced indifference is necessary when society isn't working out for you. That is, most of the avenues that were presented to you to "succeed" in life when y

Practiced indifference is necessary when society isn't working out for you. That is, most of the avenues that were presented to you to "succeed" in life when you were younger are actually designed to either turn you into a petty tyrant or a willing servant. As with how everyone behaved around the pandemic, we're prone to turning our backs on the astonishing facts of the matter and call it normal, and then call the negative outcomes mysterious and inexplicable. Most of the media we consume is in turn made to support whatever normal needs to be; it's not a conspiracy, it's a symptom of our underlying illness. Actually getting a square deal - and they do happen - is really, really hard when you're faced with gregarious competitiveness at every turn, people who aren't there to solve problems but to treat everyone as an asset, liability or threat, and put their contact list into a spreadsheet to calculate how best to get ahead. Thus, indifference. Nature is mostly indifferent and can't maintain all the fallacies that we order ourselves through; if things aren't looking good, most creatures just run and hide. Survive until options improve. Every job looks important in the moment, and not so much in the rear view mirror. It's not software alone, it's every sort of business. The good stuff trades not on credit, but on logical coherence, but nobody wants to buy into it until after it's proven itself. They'd rather hear that a so-and-so is involved or a BigCo has already made a deal with them. These and other thoughts are how I turned into a speculative investor. In this there also an unwellness, but I can face it less frequently, and with more retained optimism in the sense of "they'll all be wrong, probably, but in roughly the right direction".