Needing to bring something special to any sort of event, bringing too many things - just in case. It's overcompensating for years of not feeling like you are w

Needing to bring something special to any sort of event, bringing too many things - just in case. It's overcompensating for years of not feeling like you are welcome, and years of only being acknowledged when you had a desirable item or knowledge, otherwise you were a person non grata.